Happy Almost-End of October 🎃

I've been on a writing hiatus for too long now, and not just from my blog but from all writing.

Before I get to that, however, I should explain my lack of absence from my blog. Following my last post back in August, I got on a serious writing kick and was so heavily involved with my Entwined Fates series I barely came up for air. And by barely I mean I don't think I did anything at all from August through September. Even for my dad's birthday which came just a few days after that last post, we were at a winery during which I got a slew of ideas and began writing on my phone. Then October hit.

I wasn't sleeping more than an hour or two at most for almost the entire first half of the month, and then I was sleeping all the time. Finally starting yesterday I had sudden energy. I wasn't just able to do my physical therapy to nearly-full strength, but I was also able to go home and clean for two-and-a-half hours. Which was crazy considering up until then I wasn't even barely able to get up long enough to just feed myself food from a frigging microwave. Then last night I didn't sleep much at all and had to spend most of the afternoon recovering (and by recovering I mean sleeping), but when I woke up (embarrassingly at 1:40ish p.m.) I felt refreshed and recharged. A feeling that's not only rare for me to come by, but also not something I haven't felt since the beginning of the month. Now I'm working on my book again, it's going great, and I'm writing on my blog all from a local Starbucks. Granted I'm keeping close to home just in case, I'm in true walking distance from my house where I'm at (though I'm driving considering I doubt my body would handle up well walking in a true-fatigued state. That's never worked out well for me, and I've tried).

Anyhow, that's been my journey as of late. I'm just hoping one of these days I'll be able to write about something other than my health again, though I think it's an incredibly important part of my life to document so that other writers who have health issues might relate and know they aren't alone. It's a struggle we all share, even if that struggle manifests in different ways.

On that note:
In case I don't write again for awhile, have a happy Halloween/Samhain!

There's Faith Again!

After a solid amount of pity amidst depressing thoughts of inadequacy--typical feelings experienced by almost all writers, by the way. Are you even a true writer if you don't feel this way at some point in your writing career? (a cynical writer's joke, by the way)--I've since gotten back on my feet, and I'm working my novel again. And it's going surprisingly well, I should say. I'm actually really, really happy with how it's all working out. Needless to say I finally have faith in my writing again, and not just in my writing, but in my book. I truly think I'm getting close to finishing it. In fact, if my calculations are correct, I only have ten-plus more chapters to go and I'll be done with round one! #SoExciting

#Discouraged

That about sums up how I'm feeling about a lot of things in regards to my writing right now. Finding an editor, figuring out how to proceed in my Entwined Fates series, continuing my sequel to Shattered Lives.... I just don't know how to proceed with anything right now and it's absolutely depressing. That seems like an exaggeration I'm sure, but I have a goal to get this series half way done by August and here I am debating if I should even write it at all. See? Depressing. I've devoted years of my life to this book, rewriting it over and over, and right when I think I'm finally in a grove...BAM! It's no longer working out, my goal and my vision fade in tandem, and then I'm once again left with nothing wondering if there's any possible way to salvage it.

Perhaps I am taking on too much with this series. Perhaps it merely needs to be written as an entire book first, then broken up into different books? (To keep it as one book would tun it into over a 1,000 pages, and obviously that can't be an option!)

Well, that's my pity rant for the day. I think I'll start trying to write the single book and work my way forward from there.